Debate on Israel and hate

This blog is dedicated to Eden Attias who was 19 years old and was murdered this week. Eden was a soldier and was stabbed to death by another Palestinian 16 years old boy, whilst he was sleeping on the bus.

These are the facts. Now I shall look at them closer. 

Why am I writing a blog about this? Why is this soldier more important than other soldiers killed or injured  in Israel this year? Well, I will admit that just as with Gilad Shalit, who was kidnapped and kept prisoner for 5 years without visitation rights, when I look at Eden's picture all I see are my two yunger brothers.

Secondly, last night whilst browsing on Facebook I noticed a Christian friend of mine posted some news on the work of the Israel field hospital in Philippines with the comment "I can't say I've seen this in the news". Another Christian lady whom I do not personally know posted this as a comment "It is a shame they cannot extend the same compassion and serving attitude to the Palestinians!" I've proceeded to show the said lady only one of the videos on Youtube where Israel is sending trucks of aid to Gaza only to have Palestinians use the building materials to build tunnels through which they smuggle guns and rockets from Egypt and Syria or abduct soldiers such as Gilad Shalit. The lady was not satisfied with my answer (imagine my surprise) and posted this comment " You can't actively discriminate and see yourself in a holy war and justify it! No country including Israel should get away with human rights violations. It is also not in the news about the killing of children and people loosing hope! Having powerful allies is the only reason that Israel is not being universally condemned by the world! My view is as Christians we must speak up for the oppressed and silenced in any country. Palestinians have the same rights as any other person!" 

When I read this I found myself with a dilemma. I mean where do I even begin? Shall I take a lawyer like approach and address each point? Shall I start with who is actively carrying out a "holy war"? Israel never called this a "holy war" they call it survival and a nicely lifted middle finger pointed at all those who dream about pushing them into the sea. My first conversation with every Israeli so far was "we want peace, we had enough of this" Hell, I have a Muslim friend who actively condemns what the Palestinians do http://unitedwithisrael.org/why-a-british-muslim-of-pakistani-origin-defends-israel/

Or shall I point the well intended Christian lady to the 22 UN resolutions against Israel by comparison to the 4 voted against the rest of the world and ask her whether she still stands by her comment that Israel is not condemned by the rest of the world? As some of you know I come from an ex-communist country. One of my pastors had his finger nails pulled out in torture. My mum was not allowed to go University because she was a Christian and my uncle whilst a soldier had a gun pointed to his head by his superior and told to shoot at the people during the Revolution. And these are only people that I know personally. Hundreds of thousand of people were killed in Romania and they conducted scientific experiments on abandoned children. I never personally heard about a UN resolution against Romania. Why not? Why just Israel?

I decided I will shorten my answer and I told the nice lady this: "Well X, this is where you and I are parting ways. I am a Christian girl too, and I absolutely agree that as Christians we must stand against abuses such as the ones you describe above. But before I start throwing stones as Israel and follow the general masses fed by the rubbish in the media, I decided to dig a bit further. It is easy to comment from far away in our cozy homes where we enjoy peace and a cup of tea. But take a look at what Israelis have to put up with. So far, only this year alone over 2,000 rockets were fired from Gaza into Israel destroying people's homes and lives and this is a yearly occurrence  http://www.idfblog.com/.../rocket-attacks-toward-israel/
This week an Israeli 19 years old was stabbed to death in his own country whilst sleeping on the bus by a 16 years old Palestinian who grew up watching this on his TV screen http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YIBNRVgq59Y

I am all for standing up for the oppressed, X. But I want to know first who the oppressed are. Please notice, I did not even make reference so far to what we are told in the Bible. But I can suggest verses such as Isaiah 40:1-2; Jeremiah 33:20-26, or the famous by now Romans 11. Unless you are of the opinion that The Old Testament is not valid anymore and is there only to make our Bibles thicker and make us feel better when we find verses like Jeremiah 29:11."

Nothing breaks my heart like anti-semitism in the church. I used to suffer so much because of it because I was literally broken in two between my two loves- my Christians brothers and Israel. I don't necessarily take it that way anymore. Yes, as Christians we are part of one body, but if I am called to be a hand I will never walk. I will touch. If I was called to be an eye, I will never hear. I will see. I don't have to feel the same way as the rest of my Christian brothers to be one with them (even though the large majority now support Israel). Jesus was a Jew and He still is a Jew. So rather then me being split in two I will leave this task to those who profess they love Jesus, but stand against His nation. All I will do is not keep quiet. For the sake of the millions that died. For the sake of my friend, Michal Reznic, who's grandparents and extended family was killed because Christians kept quiet. I will not shut up for the sake of Eden and his family, for the sake of Gilad and all the other Israelis who suffer. I will not keep quiet because my Father in Heaven commanded me "Comfort, comfort my people. Speak kindly to the people of Jerusalem." (Isaiah 40:1-2 a)

I will speak against the evil and hate indoctrinated into the Palestinian children, whose greatest dream is to become a martyr and take as many Jews as possible with them. Apostle Paul said in Ephesians 6 that "Our fight is not against people on earth. We are fighting against the rulers and authorities and the powers of this world's darkness. We are fighting against the spiritual powers of evil in the unseen world." (Ephesians 6:12)

As Christians, if we wish to fight against evil, we must remember that the worst kind of evil is the unseen one. It is the loss of innocence and destruction of purity. It is hate being pored into the heart of a child who should be playing and laughing, until that hate turns him or her into a murderer at 16. If we wish to stand against something, this is what we should be standing against. I for one will follow the hymn "Though none go with me, still I will follow" because my life will be forever united with Israel. I know no other nation loved by God so desperately and I want to love what He loves.

Children in Israel (the song is Ad Mahar(Until tomorrow) by Eviatar Banai)

אביתר בנאי - עד מחר - קליפ by ahoovati

Palestinian Children TV



As a result of the hate campaign on children, a kid stabs another to death. I am all for protesting when you don't agree with something. But there are other ways to protest as this 16 years old Jewish boy proves.

 

I can't explain God

"Don't, enemy, crow over me. I am down but I am not out. I'm sitting in the dark right now, but God is my light." (Micah 7:8, TM)

Monday morning, I returned from Romania. It was so good to see all my friends and family, even though the things that some of my dear ones go through...if you don't walk with God you can't help but comment, and if you walk with Him well, you can't help but keep your mouth shut. I came back from Romania with two thoughts about God. First, He is good all the time, whether I can feel it or not and second, sometimes what He does has no logic.

They taught me in church to stick to my faith "by the book" and I will see the effects:-) This sort of theories are enough to make me laugh now. Tell this to friends of mine who never cleared off doing their own thing, who never abandoned God for a bit of "fun", who always prayed, always sought, always hoped and always told me: "God is good, no matter what He allows in my life, Emma. God is good, and nothing will change that." Try to go and tell someone who waited for more than half of their lives for God's promise and never turned their back on God, you go and tell them they don't believe enough, or that they shouldn't lose their hope, or that God is faithful and they should wait... I don't know what to tell them. I don't know how to explain God to them (not that is any of my right to do it). God can't be explained by theology, God can only be trusted. I would dare any pastor to listen to my friend, Ioana's life story, or my sister, Bat Melech, and try to explain God to me. But you know what, my friend Ioana was speaking from the front of the church Sunday morning, as broken as she was, telling us how God is good and how He should be loved and trusted, and my sister is telling thousands of people reading her blog how God is there for her and how even though she is now nothing but desert, God is counting every grain of sand that she became because only He knows how she was before she became desert.

I can't explain God. I can't do it for weeks at end now. I don't know why I am going through this phase of my life now, when I became "public"... I wish I could tell you all how to be happy and enjoy your lives, that's why I started to write this blog...What I can tell you though, is that if you will ever happen to end up here, where Ioana, Bat Melech or I are right now, I can certify He is absolutely present, because we feel held tight.

Be blessed

Emma

To my brother Sergiu

I call you my oak

It has always been true

The thought that you're there

And I can always count on you...

You're meant to be the younger one

But always cared for us

You had to grow before your time

But did not make a fuss.

And since today's your birthday

I just wanted to say

That I thank God always 

For bringing you my way

You are my oak forever

My younger older brother

And I think you were brought to us

To make up for a father...

Thank you!

I know who I must be

When faced with the decision

I looked the other way

I knew what it will cost me

The price I'll have to pay.

My mind replays those seconds 

Between the "yes" or "no"

I try to justify it

And to explain my fall.

But I'm just wasting seconds

Same way I wasted those

When I should've known better

Than landing on my nose...

Still, now that I am here

I do not wish to stay

So once again I'm calling

And dream of what You'll say.

And in my dreams, sweet Jesus

You tell me to get up

That You know all my weakness

And that You saw the trap.

I see you coming closer

Bringing Your light with You.

You kiss my head, and gently

You tell me I'll get through.

You tell me that I'm stronger 

Than I think I can be

And even when I'm falling

That girl still remains me.

I see You coming closer 

And dusting off my clothes 

You smile, and then You tell me

"I'll chase away the wolves"

I dream of all this, Jesus

Afraid I will wake up

And realize in panic

I am still just as trapped.

But then I turn and see You

You sit there next to me.

And when I see You smiling

I get up to my feet.

It should not be this easy

It is not fair on You

But when I see You smiling

I know what I must do.

When I was but a sinner

Who detested You Way

You always stood beside

Through every single day.

If that is how You loved me

When I hated You so

I now choose to believe You

I just know that I know!

And now, I'm the one smiling

While You smile back at me

And though the wolves are howling

I know who I must be.

"When you feel alone and scared doubting that I am still with you, close your
eyes and say it out loud: ‘While I was yet a sinner, Christ died for me and He
was with me, how much more is He with me now?’ Can you do that for me
Sara?”
“Yes, my Lord!” Sara cried and Yeshua smiled.
“Can you repeat that for me?”
“Yes… Yes my Lord… While I was yet a sinner, Christ died for me and He
was with me, how much more is He with me now?”" The King's daughter, by Cristina Pop

DEPRESSION AND OVERSPIRITUALISING vs. CHOOSING A GOOD ATTITUDE

“When each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.” 
Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

One of these days I will hopefully come up with a simple topic to write about. The trouble is when “simple” pops into my mind, I don’t feel like writing.  First allow me to define my terms.

 In my opinion depression is the sickness of the soul. It is dragging your feet day in and day out through your own life, with sadness and tiredness as you companions, and not remembering the last time something made you smile.

Overspiritualising is the thinking process and mental attitude by which you deliver Bible verses and Christian concepts to anything and anyone, without even understanding what they mean or having had applied them at any stage of your life in a practical way. It is providing standard phrases you heard from the pulpit without having spent 5 minutes of your time questioning them, checking your Bible about them or trying to see what their application is in your life. It ultimately is an attitude of striking back to anything that makes you uncomfortable by using Bible verses, without stopping for one second to assess whether the other party has anything good to say, or something you could learn from. Been there done that.

Choosing a good attitude? Well that is a school I am still attending and in what follows I will describe how I decided to enrol in this school and one of my most important lessons.

In an era when our lives revolve around Facebook and Youtube, we keep coming across more and more videos, pictures and quotes about being positive, successful, re-inventing ourselves, being happy, content and joyful. Some people might find these concepts “new agey” (allow me the copyright of this word) and run a thousand miles. I personally find the majority of them useful and inspiring. And after twelve years and a bit of reading the Bible and searching, I came to understand that in their essence all these life concepts are very much found in the Bible as well. The only MAJOR difference is that the “new agey” stuff focuses on the human element as being the source and the strength in this lifestyle, and we believe it is God who prompts us into action and sustains us along the way in our decisions.

I once heard Joyce Meyer say “I can’t stand to be around miserable Christians.” Being a miserable Christian myself at the time, I found her words very harsh. I felt like shouting at her “You have no idea what it means to be me. You do not know how hard I am trying.” But in reality all my objections were just excuses. 

Furthermore, I would come across verses in the Bible such as John 10:10 “A thief come to steal, kill and destroy. But I (Jesus) came to give life- life in all its fullness.” Or the Apostle Paul telling me “Always be happy. Never stop praying. Give thanks whatever happens. That is what God wants for you in Christ Jesus.” 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18. All these would not help matters at all.

Again, I felt tempted to shout at Paul “You have no idea…” The trouble was though, he did, because this man suffered immensely for what he believed and still kept a good attitude.

I do not want to point the finger at anyone, but although I grew up in a church and then made a conscious commitment as an adult to choose God, the focus always appeared to be on me making that commitment and once I was part of a church, with a very few exceptions, there wasn’t much attention paid to mentoring me. I now consider that a blessing, although I had to pay a price in tears and pain. I consider it a blessing because I was not grown and developed by a man, but by God.

“I haven’t stopped obeying Your laws because You Yourself are my teacher.” Psalm 119:102

 In those times when I felt lost, depressed and I would not understand what was happening, I would refuse to give up on what I found in God and God certainly did not give up on me. I had nobody to go to for “counselling”, so I would pray and ask my questions and read my Bible and search in the history of the church and the lives of those who went before me.

You see, I always approached my Christianity in a very fatalist manner “What if I would be arrested or could not go to church, what then?” I tried to learn from everyone and everything and take what was good, but I made a conscious decision not to depend on anyone for my inner life. Yes, not even my pastor.  Now I am glad I did, because as a result my thinking process and the whole way in which I approach Christianity is not the product of any man’s thinking, but my own. And that is good considering that I am the only one who will answer to God for what I do. I am not afraid to ask audacious questions and search for the answers and trust God with all my heart He will teach me what I need to know. Men might be offended or feel threaten by what they cannot explain or understand. God never feels that way because He is the source of all the answers I could ever possibly have.

As a result of this all my spiritual life, this home I built inside myself, has its foundation solely on my desire to grasp God and discover Him on my own and learn to love and follow Him because I want to, not because there is some sort of a peer pressure put on me.  In His amazing love and patience, God taught me things at my own pace, at the right time and in the right way. No one put any pressures on me to do something that I was not ready to do, or think something I did not own within me, or act based on something I did not believe with my heart. God took His time with me and made my roots strong. Because of that I do not accept anything without questioning and I do not care who says it. My roots make me feel safe and at home within myself and whether I belong to a group or not, whether in a church building or in an office or in an environment which challenges me, I feel secure in what I know.  I also learnt to open my mind and my eyes to the world around me and take what is good because on many occasions, just as Jesus said, “the children of this world are in their generation wiser than the children of light.” (Luke 16:8)  

By observing, I learnt a lot from them about a good attitude and guarding my mind and my heart from thoughts that bring me down. I noticed that for them it seems to be a natural process that springs from inside of them (when they want to), because they do not feel this is a way of life they must live, but a way of live they choose to live. You see, whilst I was trying to force myself into that lifestyle and failing miserably, they would succeed because they would choose and then act, rather than hear a sermon and think they must. Yes, I probably could have learnt all that from the church as well, but in my  case all that I was able to find was either an almost defeated attitude of “here we go, another day. I must pick up my cross and follow”, or the opposite whereby I would try to almost force myself to be joyful in an attempt of “fake it till you make it”, which would completely fail to involve my mind or my heart.

I will stop at this stage before anyone panics or rushes to the comments box to tell me how I am a backslider (one who abandons his faith). I believe in the power and unity of the Church (or a synagogue). At no point in time will I ever profess that one should abandon the Church and go on their own, not unless they are prepared to pay a heavy price for it (not the kind of price you want to pay). What I am talking about here, is a process I see less and less these days- church goers thinking on their own, telling me something real that comes from their tested experience rather than some preacher. If we are meant to be witnesses of Jesus then witness Him, for God’s sake, not the pastor’s last sermon. 

Ok, I’ll admit I am ranting at imaginary people who will probably not even read this, but bear with me I am getting somewhere J

So yeah, I learnt to be positive and re-invent myself, be joyful and happy and content from people, who in the majority of cases, had nothing to do with church, and I have faith in The One who took me on this journey, because time and time again I would find pretty much the same principles in the Bible. 

One such examples, is Psalm 19. I started reading Psalm 19 one day with an attitude of “let’s skip the first few verses, because I read them countless times and they talk about the creation.” I then realised that those exact verses told me how to live with a good positive attitude.  Here’s what I learnt:

“The heavens declare the glory of God,
    and the skies announce what his hands have made.
² Day after day they tell the story;
    night after night they tell it again.
³ They have no speech or words;
    they have no voice to be heard.
⁴ But their message goes out through all the world;
    their words go everywhere on earth.
The sky is like a home for the sun.
⁵ The sun comes out like a bridegroom from his bedroom.
    It rejoices like an athlete eager to run a race.
⁶ The sun rises at one end of the sky
    and follows its path to the other end.
    Nothing hides from its heat.” Psalm 19:1-6

The sun is at home in the sky. You too can feel at home within yourself but first you must make peace with yourself. Be thankful for what you have so that you may find contentment. That is your foundation before you even start. Without this, you will either never begin or quit half way, which equals failure. Gratefulness was never a default setting for me. I always acted as if the world owed me something because of what I've been through in my first few years of life. But gratefulness is something you can learn. I personally bought a notebook in which I thank God for everything that means something to me in a day. And trust me there were rainy cold days, when I could not stop thanking Him for allowing me to have a hot shower.

If you ever paid attention to a sunrise, you might have noticed that it is pretty much a spectacle. Make a big fuss of your life. Make a big fuss of every moment, every morning, every experience. If you don’t make a big fuss of your life, who else will? Every morning take ownership of your day. Tell yourself “This day is mine and nothing will steal it from me.” If you don’t, routine and boredom and ungratefulness will sneak in, and your life will pass you by. Soon enough you will become part of that crowd you keep hearing say “I have no idea where this week, month or year has gone.” The sun turns every rise and fall into a celebration. It makes a big fuss of every day. What’s stopping you?

Some people seem to shine every step of the way. You know who I am talking about because we all meet them at some point. I call them people with a plan. They expect something of themselves and that “something”, massive or small, creates in them eagerness, joy, and determination. They don’t stop until they get to that “something”. Nothing compares with that satisfaction of reaching your goal, of challenging yourself time and time again and demonstrate that “limits like fear are just an illusion.” If you learn just one thing from the sun learn how to rise again and again and again and keep moving forward until you get to where you’re meant to get.

You want to shine? You want to leave your mark on something? You want to know that your life was not in vain, that you were more than a face in an ocean of people? Learn from the sun. If you are not already doing this, try and live this way and it is impossible not to touch your world. You will leave your mark on people the same way the sun heats everything it shines on. Do you know why? Because only a few are willing to do this and care enough to stick to it. And everyone is attracted to light and warmth.

If the concept of being positive sits uncomfortable with you let me use another one. Let’s talk about your light and mine. Everyone I ever come across who try to “be positive” tell me they are looking for “the light”. Let me tell you something that empowered me like nothing else other than knowing God loves me with everything He’s got. These people are looking for “the light” and one their journey they seem content, determined and even joyful. If they can do it, I can do it and so can you. Do you know why? We have God. We are the children of the Light. We already have His light inside us and all around us. But if what I am saying to you right now, goes over your head it is as if someone would have all the water there is and still die of thirst.

 “I have come as Light into the world. I came so that whoever believes in Me would not stay in darkness.” Jesus, John 12:46 I mean how much more clearer than this, does He have to be?

“I am not worried about a bullet with my name on it…just the thousands out there marked “occupant”” Unknown

“When each day is the same as the next, it’s because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises.” 
Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

When "the people say", be careful what you're saying

Today is Holocaust Memorial Day, so I will remember.

I will remember all those conversations and articles and sermons in which I was told that all those horrendous things happened to Jews because they forgot their God. The compassionate ones from the audiences would be sad, but it appeared to be of common accord that this should be a "warning sign" to us all and in a way, Jews got what they deserved for disobeying. 

I know this is a terribly uncomfortable subject, but I am not known for writing about comfortable things. So let me start by saying that it is literally a paradox to say that a Jew can forget his God and his inheritance. They open their eyes by thanking God they woke up, they thank God when they wash their hands, at their weddings they recite "If I forget you, Jerusalem, let my right hand forget its cunning", they do this because they still mourn the destruction of the Temple of God. And these are just a few examples. 

This blog is mainly addressed to my Christian brothers, and I am writing this particular posting, because I want to raise another "warning sign" which you may or may not wish to take into consideration. It's up to you...

I will start with the story of Job. Most of us know it. He is tested by God, loses everything including all his children and when at the bottom of his world, on top of everything else, he has his wife telling him to curse God and die, and his best friends lecturing him on what he must have done wrong to deserve such a terrible tragedy. Now don't get me wrong, I read the book many times and I must admit if taken separately, all the things that his friends say are good and make perfect sense and basically tell Job that God is good and just and he must have messed up, otherwise this would not have happened. At the same time, in his crisis, Job has a permanent argument with God and asks God to explain Himself. Still, at the end of the book, when God does come, He basically tells Job "who are you to question Me?" Some of the things He says are "Would you say that I am unfair? Would you blame Me to make yourself look right? Job 40:8, NCV, and again "No one has ever given Me anything that I must pay back. Everything under heaven belongs to Me." Job 41:11, NCV
If left at this stage, you would probably start thinking God is unfair and He was unjust to Job. But, guess what? In the end, God turned around to Job's friends and tells one of the friends "I am angry with you and your two friends. This is because you have not said what is right about Me. But My servant Job did." Job 42:7 And He repeats that, just in case the three friends did not hear Him at first because of the shock. The story ends with "And the Lord listened to Job's prayer." Job 42:9b

There are so many passages in the Bible, in which God warns Israel "If you turn to other gods this is what will happen to you." One example is when Solomon completed the first Temple and invited God to come and "live" in it. God agreed and came, but he warned Solomon with the same warning, "This Temple is honoured now, but then, everyone who passes by will be shocked. They will ask, ‘Why did the Lord do this terrible thing to this land and this Temple?’  People will answer, ‘This happened because they left the Lord, the God of their ancestors, the God who brought them out of Egypt. They decided to follow other gods and worshiped and served them, so he brought all this disaster on them.'" 2 Chronicles 7:21-22

“Then the people will say”, “Then the people will answer”…I read this many times, and asked myself who are these people? I came to understand that it is us, the gentiles. Throughout this history, whether we liked it or not, we’ve gravitated around the relationship between God and Israel, and somehow we felt entitled to justify what we did to them because of God.

I think the moral of the story here and the point I trying to make, is this- people might say, but you be careful if you join them. You might quote scriptures while you do it, but so did Job’s friends. Be careful while you do this not to find yourself in the wrong camp, and have your God not very happy with your position. Every gram of human compassion makes one try to defend a person when they are down at the bottom of the pit, we don’t go and kick them further, or even worse, crush them. But that is what we’ve done to Israel throughout the ages. You might not like to hear this, but it is the truth. We like to quote their verses and their promises, but remember something, one of the same verses of theirs says, “He who guards Israel never slumbers, nor sleeps.” Psalm 121:4

They no longer need us to protect them, their God made them a strong nation again, but in days like today, they still mourn what we did to them. So if you cannot encourage them and support them, as a Christian, at least don’t unite with the rest of the world when they go against them. If “the people say”, you keep quiet. Our ancestors had no qualms with keeping quiet when 6 million of them were murdered indiscriminately. If you don’t want to pay attention to me, listen to Apostle Paul, go and read Romans 11 again, and whilst you do, I challenge you to imagine how ridiculous a branch is that turns around to the tree and asserts it is more important than the tree. Don’t judge them, because you might be wrong and not realise Who you’re messing up with.



"Jeremiah, have you heard what the people are saying? They say: ‘The Lord turned away from the two families of Israel and Judah that he chose.’ Now they don’t think of my people as a nation anymore!”This is what the Lord says: “If I had not made my agreement with day and night, and if I had not made the laws for the sky and earth,  only then would I turn away from Jacob’s descendants. And only then would I not let the descendants of David my servant rule over the descendants of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. But I will be kind to them and cause good things to happen to them again.” Then young women of Israel will be happy and dance, the young men and old men also.
I will change their sadness into happiness; I will give them comfort and joy instead of sadness. Jeremiah 33:24-26, 31:13

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

This is a poem I heard tonight by a girl named Lacey, from City Church, US. I hope it will mean something to someone else other than me. I think it is worth sharing.

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

Fallen from my designated place

My broken shards and broken heart shattered until my usefulness was erased

I felt myself falling moments before I cracked

My emptiness reminded me I wasn’t favoured, wasn’t wanted

But on the contrary exemplified my ridiculous lack

Laying in pieces on the ground as filthy as my past

I looked at every portion of my frame and knew in my depth

I was fully broken at last

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

This brokenness that bound itself to my loneliness

Not being poured into but pouring out what little I had left

Always comparing myself to how full other vessels were

Despising my shallowness and yearning for their depth

Picture perfect wholeness I thought I embodied at my best

But I didn’t really know what it meant to be whole in and of myself

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

See those that are broken by circumstance are fated to lie in ruins where they dwell

Seizing to fulfill the purpose for which they were created

But those that break while in the Creator’s hands

Are broken for untold glories which are little known by common man

But know this- broken things can be put back together again

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

And since all things work together for the good for those who love Jesus

Wouldn’t it make sense to take your broken life and give Him the pieces?

Pieces that when pieced, by the ultimate Peace, find their place

Reveal themselves fully not dimly in a mere

Think of it as Revelation by Grace

Which allows you to face your past, your present, your future, maybe even love…

Love that will time with time will heal in you what has been wronged

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

And nothing is impossible with Him who gives you strength

The One who formed you can heal your every break

Let Him break you to be broken

In brokenness He’ll make you whole

That wholeness is where I’ll end

Let His love heal your soul

And I’ll say it again

Broken by something not for something will leave you with nothing

 "The Lord does not ignore the one who is in trouble. He doesn't hide from him. He listens when the one in trouble calls out to Him." Psalm 22:24

"I will not cause pain without allowing something new to be born", says the Lord" Isaiah 66:9